I don't want to promise that I would get back to blogging regularly again but I definitely want to blog more than I did in 2017 which I only shamefully have 3 blog posts for the year. I feel so ashamed as a blogger.
2018. A new year. A new beginning. Let's start off with my New Year Resolutions in which I really hope to stand by and do this year.
My New Year resolutions: Smile more, laugh a little more, love myself a little more. Stress less and stop putting myself and my needs/desire at last. Learn to prioritize putting myself first. It’s not called being selfish, it’s called having self-respect. Because I deserve to be loved, to find happiness and most importantly to treat myself better. No more living my life like I owe my life to someone. My life belongs to no one except me. I live life for myself and not for someone else and I don’t need to live up to the expectations of others. Because there is nothing more important in life than my own great happiness and so I should do more of what makes me happy. 不管別人怎麼說, 我仍然相信我是美麗, 值得一個奇蹟. 我會學習更加善待自己, 愛自己更多一點, 也為幸福好好練習和努力一點. 因為, 我相信我的人生是會更好更美麗. 不要害怕轉變, 因為轉變會讓人變得更堅強.
I also had a little too much fun with this photo app on the last day of the year. Life’s a long and difficult journey so sometimes you just need to let loose and have a little fun. Smile, laugh, cry, be crazy and just be silly. Don’t take yourself too seriously. Just be yourself and no one else or someone else who you pretend to be.
And now on to the non-edited and exaggerated original photos I took. XD
For me, 2017 has been a very tough year and possibly the toughest year in my life so far. I’ve changed jobs 3 times. I have also ventured out of my comfort zone to try new experiences and take on new career opportunities. I have failed and I have also succeeded but I’ve learned life isn’t all about success. My failures have only made me a stronger person and help build the person I am today. It was a year of self growth and personal development for me and I’ve learned so much about myself that I’ve never discovered before. I’m grateful for these challenges I went through in 2017 as they have made me realize my strengths and weaknesses and most importantly to see a side of me I never knew existed. For all these years, I’ve build walls to keep people from knowing the real me. And for a long time I believe this wall protected me, not knowing that it was preventing me from building relationships with others, as well as building a relationship with myself. At times I felt so lost because I didn’t even know who I truly was anymore and when I realized a part of me (who I was once familiar with) has gone and disappeared, it made me feel so lonely and depressed. I wanted to search for her and reunite her back to my life but it felt like such a difficult thing to do. But despite all that, I want to move forward in 2018 with new challenges, new experiences, new dreams and goals. And maybe I don’t need to look for the part of me that’s missing because there’s a better me waiting to be discovered in 2018. I will look forward to meeting her and making 2018 a better and happier year! =)
Note: I coloured my hair blonde again after a very long time. It turned out much more blonde than I have wanted it to be. I wanted a new change for the New Year. One of my coworkers told me I look like Sailor Venus with my blonde hair. LOL! Sailor Venus is actually my favourite sailor soldier and I do think I quite resemble her (in appearance wise) given I have really long hair like her. It has also been exactly a year since I’ve last taken a selfie. For a moment I don’t even remember how to take a selfie or smile in front of the camera. That’s something I hope to change in the year of 2018.